[Welcome Music Lover, Hey Stefa]
The currency of ideas and making ourselves feel better.
I was born to create. Actually I was born-again to create.
It's in me, like some passionate affliction, this unresolved need, to do something smart, streamlined, beautiful: something wanted and valued.
The challenge is sometimes visual, sometimes conceptual. Always personal. Whatever it is at root, this need to improve on existing things drives and feeds me; it's my oxygen and blood. It gives the cry of Jeremiah in me somewhere else to go.
At least I think so.
+ and -
On the minus-side, the constant striving for affirmation (which is what it is, really) can be exhausting. On the plus-side, you might just get to remake life into something useful, something maybe a little bit more than it was even just a few moments ago.
But I wonder: What are these ambitions anyway if not some kind’a primal screaming out in some sense of past unfulfillments? Like paying for a debt that can never be repaid, I believe we can’t let go of the need to prove ourselves because we can't or won't allow for the hurt places to be healed over, for our heart to be made satisfied and whole ...
... At least that's how it is before ....
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Creative Fix: 1
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It is reassuring to know that "While we were still sinners, Christ died for us!" Thank you also for the reminder that grace isn't something I need to earn with constant improvement--although improvement is also good! :)
I should have said to earn God's favor--grace is UNMERITED.
I love the cry of Jerimiah. Sometimes, it is so unwelcomed into our hearts through our doubt, but it is that risk we need to take for God :)
*also, Thank You for the personal welcome at the top, Mark :)
Love
Stefa
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