Before the Big Rinse

The realization of needing or wanting to become "reset" must necessarily come with the humble understanding that on our own we tend to drift pretty far off-line from where we started.

We get slimed or slime ourselves usually because we want to vest our personal interests in someone else's abilities, power or connectedness, hoping for success-by-extension (hitching your wagon to someone else's pony) .

Fear is what drives this.

Becoming muck in the process may not occur to us until later. By then, no matter how much we success we glom, we know deep inside who & what we are, and we don't like it much. Now the wheel of self-fulfilling prophecy kicks in, driving us to greater heights at ever greater cost, which is why rich guys, after a little run of bad luck, often with no visible motive at all, sometimes dive off buildings.

Knowing that we're constantly in need of God's help can get lost in both the bluster & cacophony of self. It takes a very brave -- or desperate -- person to own all the way up thru the pain of denial and say, "I can't continue living like this."

And so, then what? And so, God. But how? ...

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