Seven .. (2)

People who don't feel figure they have it all figured out.

It isn't reason they cling to (don't be fooled), but a wordly "wisdom" that requires them to push back and away from anything and everything that might compromise their goals & ambitions.

The unfeeling believe that feeling is a discretionary art, with an on/off switch. They believe they can handle everything by simply managing externals, and because they can't at all manage their lives that way, nor handle the internal conflicts that result from being closed to the truth (and living such lies), they are forced to spend like 99% of their emotional & spiritual energy hiding & smothering the really better part of who they are.

It's killing them to have it all.

-- m1230

Seven ... The Hard Way (1)

We are all to some degree caught up in the compression of daily living, which seems more and more to manifest itself, increasingly articulately so, through the ocean of our repressed feelings. I figure you probably either feel intimately the reality of all that's terribly wrong, twisted, broken and breaking, in this ludicrously strange season of time, or ... you don't feel anything at all. Whichever category-extreme one belongs to, these responses to the challenges and trials of the "everyday grind" are telling us something, and I think a big part of what it's telling us is that we're both running out of emotional string and running out of time.

On the feeling side, people are or are becoming ever more wingy, unpredicable, angry, intolerant and intolerable; fractured, like a window slowly but surely shattering into a thousand tiny pieces. Everything feels amplified all the time, and the shrill peak in volume all around us, that can't be contained, is spilling over the adjoining borders of the normally tidy compartments we tend to like to store our emotional stuff in, like water breaching levees, forcing us to face the fact that, firstly, we have a real & growing problem on our hands, and, secondly, that the requisite clean-up will require a prodigious effort beyond what most of us are readily equipped for.

The non-feeling folks are only more slightly worse off because they aren't really living at all, and so refuse to recognize or validate the signs of the times, which we need to see in order to escape.

Can I get a witness?

... back from betwixt and between after an intense account slough.

meet (as soon as the pix upload widget starts working again) the latest bookmarks for Delta Hotels, starring my new company moniker, "redeploy." i really wanted to land just "ploy," but the cunning brat was already taken.

visited the "meeting house" today. bruxy is marvelously messy, and so grass roots i half expected to see wild leeks sprouting from his ears. it's church as minor spectacle, and not half-bad at that. more to the point, his sermon on "compassion" really hit home with its focus on being in solidarity with the poor through our own rejection of rampant materialism. "Radical generosity" he calls it.

I call it, "wising up."

-- m1230